Wednesday, June 29, 2011

on the rollercoaster

It's a really Down Day. I am not going to go into why, because honestly the "why" is not a huge deal. Its my retarded response to the "why" that is making me so down!

I have got to learned to navigate setbacks or failures without feeling so terrible and rejected, or I am in the WRONG BUSINESS, BABY.

Which I know I'm not.

I need a kick in the pants - and it looks like I'm going to have to give MYSELF one, somehow!

*one-sided smile at funny mental picture*

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

good news/bad news

The good news is, I don't really look my age.

The bad news is, I TOTALLY feel my age these days. I am pretty sure its the high blood pressure; I am on drugs for it now, which really helps, but the drugs themselves make me have no energy.

The good news is, I am probably not going to drop dead from a stroke or heart attack now, since I am on these drugs.

The bad news is, I have gained more than ten pounds since I started taking them, because its SO difficult for me to work out! Instead of feeling energized, which I always used to when I exercised, I now feel limp and exhausted after just a few minutes of working out! and if I push myself to continue, I start getting lightheaded and feeling like I'm going to faint. Its frustrating.

I am not really sure what to do. Obviously, its more important to have my blood pressure under control than to have my weight under control, but on the other hand, I know that being more fit would help my blood pressure ASIDE from the drugs. Its not like I'm fat or anything, either - but my muscles don't show anymore, which I really hate!

Yeah, I'm just whining....

gorgeous designs!

Here's a link to some of the most beautiful custom furniture EVER:

Monday, June 27, 2011

latest single


The problem is, I can't find some files on my laptop. I know they're there, because I saved them to my hard drive a couple days ago after I downloaded them from the bank. But I can't find the bloody things - I've looked in all the logical folders, and even done a search, unaided by that ridiculous Paper Clip Man who always reminds me of Jeeves for some reason. I turned him off after a bit, because he kept offering stupid, irrelevant advice till I was about to punch him in the throat.

I am all cramped from hunching over my laptop. TH would say "Why don't you go down into the office and sit at the desk and then your neck and shoulders won't get so stiff?" My answer is, quite simply, that I do not wish to go down into the office. I wish to stay up here and complain about it.

I actually wish to lie in some hot sand near a large body of water with a sweating margarita next to me, but that is not in the cards.


lunchboxes, and why mine is empty

I heart lunchboxes. I am not really sure why, I just do. When I was a little kid, I had a Holly Hobbie lunchbox, and when my big sisters went to school with THEIR lunchboxes, I took mine out into the vacant lot next to our house, since I wasn't old enough for school yet.

I even love the old school man's lunchbox - you know, they are black and have a domed roof that flips back to reveal the place to stash the Thermos? Yeah.

I actually have one of those, but it's empty. I would like to put some lunch in it, and possibly take a walk up into the woods behind my house and eat lunch up there.

Here's why I haven't: A. I am wearing a skirt and high-heeled sandals. Why, you might ask, am I wearing such attire on a day when I'm not going anyplace till 3:30 or so? It was just one of those mornings when I wanted to look pretty, okay? My makeup sort of went wonderfully right, and then I wanted to continue the rightness on down my body to my feet.

Hence the nude, strappy high-heeled sandals.

Its not like I haven't ever GONE up in the woods wearing a skirt and heels - I am actually known among my peers for not only being overdressed in the extreme for almost every occasion but also being able to climb trees in heels - but that brings us to reason B: I don't know what to put in my sandwich.

I don't! I have tuna, salami, cheese and peanut butter, and the various acoutrements that go with such items. But I don't know what I want. I don't actually feel like EATING a sandwich. I am more in a Tom Yum Soup-type mood. You can't really put THAT in a lunchbox.

Oh right! I don't have a Thermos. In case you are thinking, "put it in the Thermos, and put THAT in the damn lunchbox!"

I have a great idea!!! Why don't I start using a lunchbox as my handbag? Roomy, easy to find things in, and unique. Maybe I can start a new trend....

explain it to the blonde

So, I don't really know how to find people here. Without having their specific blog addresses, I mean. Isn't there a way to browse blogs based on interests or locales? I need to make some friends here, connect with people, but I don't have six hours to go around to all my friends from other places, ask them to send my their Blogger address, and then type it in. Besides, I'd like to meet some new people, too.

Surely, there must be a better way. Every other social networking-type site I'm on has a "friend search" type engine, but here they just have "invite your friends using their email addresses".


It's a beautiful day today, but I have to spend it doing paperwork, which makes me grumpy. I LOATHE AND DESPISE PAPERWORK. I am not great at it, so I put it off, and then end up with a big pile.

I want to take my guitar and sit by the lake and play breezy lake music....

Saturday, June 25, 2011

"Divide" music video

blog-ally challenged

By the way, it took me just under two hours to figure out how to feed my blog to my other sites.  Sad, just sad.

Some Good, Some Bad

The past few days have been a totally weird combination of great moments and awful moments! Musically, I have had a GREAT few days. I worked in the studio on Thursday, which went gorgeously - I laid down a lot of BGVs for “Dark Angel”, and they sound wonderful! Well, they need to have their edges smoothed and their levels adjusted, but I can tell they are GOING to sound wonderful.

Personally, I have had a SUCKY few days. My debit card info was stolen, and charges made in Hawaii, Florida and New York. Travel much? And what really bites is, I HAVE NEVER BEEN TO ANY OF THOSE PLACES. I would love to, but other people keep using my travel funds. Other things, too, happened that were upsetting, including the sudden and unexplained death of my little Bing the canary, whose bright golden voice made me happy every morning.

But the music always pulls me back, you know? It’s my Swish, and if you don’t know what that means, that’s just too bad for you.